Sine Amor, Nihil Est Vita

To start, I should congratulate you for being stupid enough to sign a life or death (or in other word; marriage) certificate with our name on it which cannot be annulled. In spite of that horrendous fact, by agreeing to marry me you deserve some kind gestures that any other person will not get from me. Which is pretty cool considering the fact that I am not the kind of person who is nice to everyone. I will be your best friend, your player 2, your discussion partner, your cook slash financial manager, your drinking buddy---- you can just hit me up anytime and trust me, I'll be more than willing to accompany you. If you have reached the step where you actually consider on putting the ring on my ring finger already, I assume you already know my worst habits and deepest fears. However let me remind you again in case you forget. I am afraid of darkness, height and cockroaches, so that means you know who are going to fix the lights when there's a sudden blackout, who is going to f...

(Hi someone who is in my heart, maybe this can I convey. Thank you for what happened on Tuesday and Wednesday last) I was standing with my friends outside the school gates. I and my friend telling you about each other and about the people around us. You come between us. You are greeted with warm eyes and a sweet smile. Next, you congratulated for my birthday. I can only stare at a blank and dreamy. Furthermore, I would like to ask you to speak and I would like to say thank you, but you're off and running. I'm happy for words. Seventeen beautiful. The next day when I wanted to go to the mosque, you are in front of the class. I look at you, when I want to show my smile for you, you have to smile and say "look out" to me. I confused the meaning of "alert" is. I can only help but smile and delight in the heart. Flowery heart. Thank you for the incident for two days. Hopefully the wonderful events will continue, not only in those two days.         ...

Aku menyayangimu tanpa alasan. Alasan itu bernama cinta. Dan alasan tak jelas telah menghancurkan harapanku. Hingga pada saatnya kau menjauh secara perlahan. Malam ini ku termenung di bilik kamarku. Bilik yang tak begitu luas dan tak begitu sempit. Menikmati bekas guyuran air hujan menjadi ketertarikanku saat ini. Mungkin, malam ini sama seperti malam di hari-hari lain ketika bintang mulai menunjukkan dirinya. Tetapi khusus hari ini, pikiranku berlari tanpa arah, merasuk ke dalam titik pusat terdalam, hingga aku merasakan akan kerinduan yang tak terkendali. Bunyi jarum jam menjadi saksi kelamnya arena pemikiranku. Di dalam pikiranku, aku sudah tak tahan. Hati ini meronta-ronta untuk segera dilepaskan karena sudah tak tahan dengan kerinduan. Ya, memang saat ini aku terserang rindu. Rindu akan seseorang yang hadir di dalam hatiku,  yang sudah dua minggu tak muncul di hadapanku. Aku hanyalah setetes tinta tanpa pena. Kita di tempa dalam misi yang sama, berproses dan membentuk ideali...